Seventeen.

Blessed.

Have you ever just felt really blessed? Well, for me, these last two weeks have really been a blessing.

A job...at the most amazing place on earth, 1st Assembly, and my own car to get me there. Maybe for you that's not just the most exciting thing--work and a car that only takes you to work--but for me this is the beginning of a great adventure! ...Like a new chapter in my spiritual journey. I am so excited about the things I will learn and the things I will do in the next two years at the church.

Again, I say: Thank God for a church and pastors that truly care about me and my walk with Christ and my leadership experience. Praise God for parents that are constantly pushing me forward and encouraging me all the way. God is good. He is really, really good!

Also, pray that I pass these semester test coming up this week and next. They are going to be VERY hard, I know.

Sixteen.

What an eventful week....

I like to be busy, constantly on the go, but at a certain point I become tired and ready to just sit still or actually be home for a day.

May has been full and often double-stacked with occasions. Here's what my month looks like:

Monday, April 30 - Barbershop Festival at Cabot High after school
Tuesday, May 1 - Took pics for Prom Promise at school, rescheduled piano lesson at 5:30
Monday, May 7 - Stayed home sick
Tuesday, May 8 - rescheduled piano lesson at 6, theHouse Phone bank (which I forgot about)
Thursday, May 10 - Checked out to secretly take family pics for mom on Mother's Day, Arkansas Symphony practice for choir after school at Robinson Center, Youth Alive Praise Night (couldn't attend)
Friday, May 11 - ASO performance at Robinson (couldn't attend), Young Warriors (4th/5th Grade) Weekend
Saturday, May 12 - Still with church for YWW until 2, ASO performance at Robinson
Monday, May 14 - my piano gets tuned (by the person that tunes the church's piano, so I found out), pre-recital piano practice with other students at 4:30, sing National Anthem with "Fantastic 5" sophomore barbershop (Tenor 1...WOO WOO!) at school awards ceremony
Tuesday, May 15 - Piano Recital in Little Rock, P.J.'s "going away party" that I was invited to via Facebook by Madison
Wednesday, May 16 - Reality's Got Talent (my last human video to perform with the Reality Drama Team...after 5 years)
Thursday, May 16 - Choir Concert
Monday, May 21 - Senior Choir Banquet

Yeah...I know, "WOW!" I'm a student! I'm not supposed to do this much stuff am I? Anyway, I'm basically ready for a break! Summer is going to be so nice.... This is my schedule for the summer:

Monday, June 2 - The Deepening!
One day each week - work with Pastor Steve at the church (Which, don't forget, we need to talk about in the next 3 weeks, P.Steve....)
Every other day - listen to the quiet and watch the stillness at my house
Some week - Family Vacation

Isn't that beautiful? So peaceful! Can't wait!

Now that I see how this has very little to do with my "Spiritual Journey," I'll ask you to pray that my voice will recover from being sick last Monday and from the additional damage done on Wednesday night during worship, Thursday night at ASO rehearsal, Friday night at the YWW, and Saturday at the YWW and ASO performance. LOL! Thanks for reading my useless nonsense. It wasn't very spiritual, I know.

Have a great week! Hope yours isn't so busy!

Fifteen.

Have you ever just had that gut feeling that something big is about to happen? Like you can sense that good change or growth is near?

I'm so ready for the summer! The summer is always a great time for spiritual growth, considering that all school stress is out of the picture. There is 31 days until school's out, but I don't want to wait! I want to start getting deeper in God now!

This weekend I've been really desiring to be in God's presence. I have this great longing to get close to Him tomorrow at church, in the "corporate" worship setting. I sort of hear God whispering, "Come, now is the time for worship. You are welcome. Here I am. I'm waiting, Timothy. Give it a go! Now's the right time. I'll show you what My presence is! It's going to be great! I love you! Now, you love me."

It's times like that when I want to respond in worship. When I want to get deep in singing and rejoicing in the great things He has brought to my life. I say to God, "Here am I, all of me. I wanna go deeper. Pour out your spirit, oh God! I come to You for comfort and peace, Abba Father! Your grace is enough. In fact, it's overwhelming! Praise God! Hallelujah! You are good! I am not, but thank God, I know I AM! Rejoice in the Lord always because He cares enough to die for such a dirty sinner like me. Though You are big, You love me, no matter how small I am. I love you! I do love you, with all that is within me!"

Needless to say, I'm ready to redefine myself in God's presence, to find who I really am and where I'm really going and how I need to get there. Thank God that He's with me every step I take, guiding me and molding me into the passionate worshipper that He has called me to be.



The more I seek You,
The more I find You.
The more I find You,
The more I love You.

I wanna sit at Your feet,
Drink from the cup in Your hand,
Lay back against You and breathe,
Feel Your heart beat.

This love is so deep;
It's more than I can stand
I melt in Your peace,
It's overwhelming.